There is so much we can be afraid of. What could happen. What has happened…that could somehow happen again, tearing open old wounds and letting skeletons out of forgotten closets. Even when we think they’re safely locked up, our biggest fears travel with us and hang around our necks like twisted accessories. Not exactly beautiful, but familiar and somehow ever-present even when we wish to be free of them. They perch in the back of our minds and whisper doubt, discouragement, and all kinds of hurtful things. And the heart trembles.
When I’m afraid, I feel it physically in my body. A closing in around the ache. Where I start to think that I’ll have to flex my muscles to keep out everything, good and bad, just to keep out the bad. Missing out on all the good because I am living in self-preservation mode, which doesn’t really preserve anything. It makes everything stale and lonely. Which makes it hurt more, and starts a maddening cycle.
We were not made to bear our burdens on our own. We were made for Love. Wholeness. Connection. And instead we live hurt, broken, afraid and alone. But it doesn’t have to be like that. If we grow discontent with the cycle of fear and hurt and cry out to Loving God for help, courage rises up like water out of the ground. He comes to those who call. He came to me, and keeps coming to me every time I tremble and cry out.
The courageous ones are not those who are never afraid. I’ve seen a number of people I count as Courageous Hearts trembling, agonizing, sweating over what is before them…Feeling small and inadequate. Reaching out in faith that they might find something good on the other side. And when a hand reaches back…a tangible friend, or the invisible God…the heart trembles again, for different reasons, as it is being filled with goodness and grace. To be seen. To be touched. To be heard are all desperately important to the hurting heart.
So if you’re hurting, reach out. Call out. Share your burden with a friend, or if not a friend, share it with my prayer form over on the right so I can say a prayer for you. And if you had a season of that and are now in a season of wholeness, don’t forget where you have come from. Reach out to someone who is still there and pray for grace like rain to come. When the heart trembles, surround yourself with light and watch the darkness flee away.
“Perfect love drives out fear.” 1 John 4:18